I was one of those women who didn’t want to read about everything that was going to happen to me but rather I wanted to experience it. So no I didn’t read Dr. Spock or What to Expect When You’re Expecting. I didn’t Google birth stories or ‘how much does labour really hurt?’ Everyone had said how amazing being a mother was gong to be and how special of a bond you have with your child, something that is unexplainable but you will know it once you live it.
In all of my conversations with other mamas the one thing that no one mentioned was the emotions you have. I get it hormones are out of whack. My body is still trying to recover from what it went through or as I joke from what happened to it. But really how can you be fine one minute and not fine the next? Yes I am sleep deprived and I know that is playing a role but really you have so much love for this tiny creature that at times you feel helpless. They can’t communicate with you other than to cry and sometimes when the ‘witching hours’ are upon us that crying can be a lot.
I read an article today about babies with colic and it read that, “some doctors define it by the rule of threes: three hours of crying at a time, at least three times a week, for at least three weeks in a row — usually starting between the third and sixth week of life.” I can’t imagine listening to three hours of crying. My baby cries for 30-40 minutes and I feel helpless…I admit it. As someone who loves to be in control it isn’t easy to admit that. I worked with a coach whose motto was, “get comfortable being uncomfortable” who knew that would be so fitting when it came to parenting.
I’d like to thank my hubby for making my first Mother’s Day a great one! Spending the day with him and our baby was perfect 🙂
For all the wonderful, miraculous and incredible moments, some are just really hard! For me, many moments were hard and still can be… I am still learning to be uncomfortable! One moment at a time!
Strangely enough many years ago when I was pregnant we did not have access to all the information that is available to you now….but I survived, the baby survived even though I was very young and inexperienced. For most mothers it really does come naturally. I loved just staring at that little face when it is sleeping…it makes it so worth while.
I was told by the doctor, when I went trough PP anxiety with A. That it can take up to two years for your horomones to regulate. I should have warned you about the uncontrollable sobbing…totally normal:) You will eventually get used to the spontaneous sobbing/heart bursting with love feelings.
I always thought my mom was emotional. Whenever she saw something on the news that was tragic that had to do with children she would cry-now that is me!